Good days never exist in my dictionary now.

Oh man , SERIOUSLY depressed to the max, haih I didnt get to finish my 2nd experiment in the lab , I am soooo depressed and feeling wanna shout out loud! Damn you practicals seriously ! And hell, lecturers are just LIKE that , this is an endless nightmare, Nottingham campus I fear you already ! I live like a zombie everyday please stop!

Is it as torn as mine?

I miss you , please get out of my head , HAIH

My heart's farewell

Another buddy of mine is leaving tomorrow, AK5187 . Wong Ying Sheng , :( I will miss you . I know everyone needs to say goodbye someday , but it's hard to look at my buddy and say goodbye. I will keep you guys in my heart. I will fly too someday later, wait for me ,the journey of our hearts.

The lock .

I am not forgetting about you , but keeping all the memories in my heart. I will not take it out , I will not recall back . You had the key to my heart, but now the key is gone, cos I have destroyed it . I can't hate, cos I really can't let myself to hate you . (: With you , my life was great, cos every night you would call for hours, and I expected my phone to ring . Without you , I try to make my days occupied with work . Passing by the places familiar with your face is like a flashback of the memories, but it's just fine , cos I need to face it . Not couples anymore but i wish that we can be really good friends.

First day of work .

My first day of working at True label pharmacy store. TOUGH ONE TOUGH ONE! memorize medicines with Momo. HAHA! I made some new friends there - Bruce, Yong Qian , Ah Ling , YenRu , Carrie, Carol , Xue Er ,SiaoQiang, TAUKE! Kinda tough really . But I think I have made the right decision of intending to enter medical field, more precisely , pharmacy .
My relationship ,
Still I miss you a lot . Never want to ask you to come back , but i think for now , the best relationship between us is just being friends, and I feel really great about that, liking a boy like you doesn't mean that I need to have you (: want you to stay happy always.

Last day in Singapore.

如果是你陪我一起来到这里，那会有多好。也许现在我的心还是被你这个小偷偷走了，而且还狠狠地在我的心那里刺了一刀。

It pains me every single sec.

I miss you . But I won't hold you back, it pains me. Maybe I still can't get over you. I see your shadow in everywhere, what can I say, you are always on my mind .

Dear diary

It's 3am and I m using iPad 2 to blog. I cant sleep at all. Sadness is coming towards me every single second. I am looking at his Facebook, but , I will not regret about the decision that I have made. Lord, you always have the best plan in hands. Please, make me forget.

SG.

Dear diary , I am in Singapore right now . Yea , shopping trip. I broke up with my boy . My best friend said that I was too impulsive, so I texted him for the last time ,hoping that miracle would happen . But , I think both of us daren't to face it anymore, he didn't answer my question in the text , but at last he sent me a text while I have already arrived in singapore for seven hours . Saying , :hope you enjoy your trip in Singapore. But , I seriously don't wanna give up on him . Is it wrong to break up with him first? Every single place that I havef stepped on in Singapore always reminds me about him. Even the very normal t shirt , I love sg. Yea, I love sg. He is trying to keep something from me, what's the thing that he doesn't wanna tell me ? Till now I am still curious about it .

Girls should have their own prides .

I have been acting like I don't give a shit lately. YEAH , I kinda made myself feel like I don't really care about him . I am leaving tomorrow . Will he do something to make me change about how I feel ? If he does, GREAT MIRACLE STILL HAPPENS LOL .But I bet that he will just, " Oh babe , I will miss you " and I will get so disheartened and tell him " don't come to me anymore, you jerk. "

LIFE WITHOUT SCHOOLING .

Hey diary, since when I am so devoted to blogging ?
well that's not the point HAHA .
I miss school seriously. I stay at my mom's shop like a useless chick .
NEEDA GO TO SCHOOL ! AT LEAST LEARN SOMETHING . I MISS YOU ,SCHOOLLLL.
I MISS ALL OF MY FRIENDS <3

MISTAKE

I fell for the wrong person . I can't handle lies, never ever.

Do you understand?

Hey diary, I have missed you since the day I started to have my emo phase.
boy,
can you read my mind ?
do you understand what my body languages are trying to say?
I can forgive you if you are too dumbass to understand everything , but I will never forgive you if you don't give a damn about me .
You woo-ed me in the first place,
you wanted me in the first place,
you caught my heart ,
you had my attention and concerns all about you .
Yet, LATELY , YOU HAVE BEEN SUCH A JERK .
ARE THE BOYS ALWAYS THE SAME?
THEY TREAT YOU LIKE A PRINCESS IN THE FIRST PLACE, BUT END UP NEGLECTING YOU .
you said you loved me , you missed me
I want no WORDS
I want words with actions , but you never prove to me , day by day, my faith in you fades away.
whom should I put the blame ?
I am trying hard to save this , but if you are not working on it , it will just end up like this.
I am tired. I DAREN'T TO BELIEVE IN YOUR WORDS. I AM AFRAID.
Please, once again , let me feel that I mean something to you, I feel so terrible , but you never care, don't ever break a girl's heart, YOU WILL GET KARMA

Dear Diary

YEA COMPLEX NUMBERS COMPLEX NUMBERS, I M GOING INSANE , VERY SOON

Sometimes you really cannot choose.

I'm facing some problems. DILEMMA. OMG , 3 MONTHS LATER I WILL BE GRADUATING FROM MY ALVL . Yes, I have been doing all the SCIENCE thingy, my head is filled with all the scientific knowledges and I talk in SCIENTIFIC WAY USING SCIENTIFIC TERM .Yes, I am doing that everyday. I plan for myself, or I am forced to plan for myself? I can't put the blame on anyone, they always say , just go ahead. TRIALS AND ERRORS. FIRSTLY IF I HAVE GOT ENOUGH MONEY, I WILL DEFINITELY TRY FOR EVERYTHING . SECONDLY , IF WE CAN TURN BACK THE TIME WHENEVER WE WANT TO , I WILL GO FOR IT. What is the key now ? TIME AND MONEY. Should I study pharmarcy or Pastry? Yea, daddy said pharmarcy is good. Yes it's good but i am afraid of ruining my own future, who knows , I might fail , TOUCHWOOD , BETTER DONT! God, please show the way, I am blindfolded and tired. I cant see anything ,or I am refused to see? refused to choose? God, please grant me to have passion in studying pharmarcy.